Hello

I'm making a new post for this, rather than posting to the CW Announcements thread, in case more of you see it that way. This post is going to be rather personal, but in the interest of honest and transparency, I do want to share it with you guys to the best of my abilities.

To put it simply: I'm going through an extremely rough time right now with my mental health. I'm in the process of battling an extremely bad bout of recurring depression. It's bad enough that my doctor and I are slowly transitioning me to different medications to hopefully help me get back on my feet. There have been a lot of days where I get up, walk downstairs, get on the couch, and don't move again until I have to make dinner (or even go back to bed). Everything has been extremely challenging and exhausting.

I am doing my absolute best to be here for you guys and get the queue done in a timely manner, because that's my job and I do enjoy working on it! Or at least, I enjoy it when I'm feeling more grounded mentally, haha. But yesterday, for example, I worked on the queue for about 40 minutes and was suddenly so exhausted I just couldn't do it anymore.

I'll be doing my best to do as much as I can on Wednesdays and Sundays, but you may see some things on other days if I have a sudden burst of energy and realize I can work on it at that time. I have a few CW projects I REALLY want to get done, but I'm having to put them on the back burner right now while I concentrate on just the basics: the queue and tickets.

I'm doing my best to feel optimistic that my doctor and I will get this figured out, and hopefully over the next few weeks I'll start to feel more like Myself again and things will get 100% back to normal. Until then, things might just be a bit on the slow side.

Again, I know this seems like a pretty 'personal' share, but over the past few years I've tried really hard to be open and honest with myself and with others about my mental health, because I think it's an important part of my healing for me to recognize when I'm in a downward slump. I'm going to do my best to get things done for you guys, though, and I'll let you know (in the announcements thread) if any major schedule hiccups happen. Thanks so much for your patience and understanding right now ❤️

Mental health issues aren't easy getting through so I understand the struggle of needing to adjust to different schedules when you have no energy to do things. Please do focus on yourself since pushing could make the situation harder on you. Pace yourself and it will all come together soon. <3

As someone who herself dealt with crippling depression in the past (I have recovered!), thank you for your share and I pray for your recovery. Huge hug.

You focus on taking care of YOU. That's more important than the cw queue! Mental health issues suck.

Taking care of yourself is top priority. Hugs.

I completely understand and am no stranger to mental illness. Please remember to take care of you <3 I'm just gunna sit here in the background cheering on your recovery ^^

As someone who suffers from depression, OCD, and anxiety I can sympathize - Take care of yourself, the CWs can wait. hugs

You and your health are the priority! Thank you for letting us know and thank you for everything you have done. However, please do take whatever time you need to take care of yourself. Hugs!!!

Sending love and hugs and wishes for a wholesome recovery. <3

I hope everything is able to get sorted for you soon, but honestly the queue being delayed here and there is such a small inconvenience when the alternative is you being burnt out and unable to function. No one should suffer like that.

Your health has to come first.

Please take care of yourself Jessi. I hope you feel better soon <3

Thank you for sharing ❤️ Know you’re not alone and a lot of us have experienced mental health struggles and can relate probably more than you think!

Don’t be hard on yourself and focus on feeling better! ❤️❤️❤️

take good care of yourself! hope you feel better soon!

I really feel you, hun! I hope you feel better soon and can enjoy your life and your loved ones at your fullest. Take your time and take care, health (and specially mental health) always comes first.

I'll reiterate what I said before: YOU are more important than Subeta. YOU come first, ALWAYS.

I hope you start to feel more like yourself soon and find better management of your depression w/ the help of your doctor. I'm sorry you've been having such a hard time lately, and I'm proud of you for working to get through it.

I definitely think you should take care of yourself first and don't feel bad if you need a mental break and just to relax and or sleep! Sleep is so important and if you are adjusting to new meds its probably going to take a bit to get the adjustment right so you can feel like yourself again and there's nothing wrong with that. I personally remember the days of waiting a few weeks or more to sometimes get the queue done so having to wait extra time so you can have some mental health days does not make me upset in the slightest. I'll wait a month or two if that means you can focus on yourself first. And lets face it mental health is always such a stigma (for everyone/everywhere/with jobs) its ridiculous so I say take care of yourself (maybe make some cupcakes or something fun you enjoy baking if your energy is up for it) and like Binge watch some favorite shows <3 or you know ordering in and binge watching favorite shows and movies! You definitely have some excellent cuddle buddies with your kitties?! Hope you feel better soon!

Your health ALWAYS comes first ❤ Please take care of yourself!

Full support <3 I hope the med changes help! They can be rough but sooo worth it once you find the right ones for you. Best of luck Jessi, you're awesome!

hugs to you!

Jessi, I'm so sorry to hear you're going through this. I'm glad that you're working with your doctor to find what works though. Sometimes even getting to that point is hard. I'm trying to get myself there right now. It's most important to take care of yourself. Sending you hugs <3